Short update:
I continue to work as a case manager in treatment foster care. It hasn't been any easy journey-- as I learn about what paperwork needs submitted when, due dates for everything, learning to work with some different and difficult people, giving advise and parenting tips, managing countless emails and phone calls and documenting every single thing. Sometimes feeling discouraged, hopeless, with no direction. Sometimes feeling like I have the upper hand and am catching on. Sometimes feeling like all the life and love I gained last year is being drained from me. Sometimes feeling great respect and appreciation for my foster families and their dedication to foster children.
I think about my old job and work at Imagine! in Colorado...sometimes I compare too much to the work I do now. And I don't think that's fair...but I also think that my year working with people who have developmental disabilities as set a small flame in my heart and feel the passion growing. I know God doesn't give us too much that we can't handle and He also leads to places for reasons. I do appreciate my job and the opportunity I have to work, in this economy. I know I am blessed and for that....I will keep working hard and share a smile with those I work with. But at the same time, I know this job isn't my calling and God is working in my heart, preparing for other great things down the road.
Since moving back to the east coast, life continues to be a journey, filled with ups and downs. I've enjoyed being much closer to family and friends, yet at the same time- still feel some loneliness. I'm learning what it means to be in different life stages from most of my friends and am finding it difficult to experience friendships with other single young adults. It's slowly becoming a reality of mine to have engaged and married friends. Which I wish them all happiness, but am in no way close to that experience. So at times, loneliness is my factor. But and this a BIG but, my boyfriend is planning a move to the great state of Virginia in a month. Having spent 10 and half months apart has not been a cake walk and I'm completely stoked to end that part of our relationship- hopefully for good. I think that has contributed a lot to this new year as well. But I'm excited for what's in store and look forward to the path ahead.
Well poof, I just lost all brain activity and can't think of what else to write...so there's my 5 month update! --Hopefully I write in a more timely fashion from now on.
Thanks if you still read this.
Lindsey
